Confidence

I strongly wished I might have a bright future,but now I strongly wish I can create my future.
It's a brand-new start 4 me in year2007 so I decide to try harder & harder and go toward my way as continuum.I realize english learning has become more difficult ,so maybe I'll find some shelters to hide myself,however,I know I won't.I remember clearly what I promised just like happened yesterday.Hey,I'm gonna America whether waiting can be long or sudden.I take 4 granted that I will keep my promise.
Sometimes I'm able to find sth reliable,such as my top score of an fuck'in,boring exam,but I really made it and it proved I had the ability.Don't count on the god,he can protect u in mind instead of in life.People who are confused need to be confident by every tiny things.Collect them!
Someone doubt why I used"ur merit"as my blogger nick name,it's strange even ridiculous.The only main reason is to prove I've the merit to convince u and the merit is that from my confidence.
Simon told me we gay need to be confident to ler others who laugh at ourselves laugh at themselves,it's absolutely true.More smile,more patience will make those bigots kissing our ass!To the outrageous,fuck your rears without condoms,haha.

New year,new year!

Haha,Chinese New Year is coming soon,I've already been thinking about how to spend my pocket money even though it won't be much.Staring at the 'red world',red lamps,red carpets and red strips,i feel reaaaaaaally nice.

I doesn't have enough time to relax,enjoying myself,however,new year's atmosphere makes me get away fom bad mood in the past whole year.I can't forget my bad score in my new school and losing my cell phone:SE-K790C(it cost me a lot).I still trust that I'll have a bright future coz I have the ability to win and overcome all the difficulties.

I have started reading<DRY> a few days ago coz I was in winter holiday and I had a lot of sympathy on Austin:he met with drug addicts,funeral?(do i express correctly?)and death,all the things around him ……what a mess.I guess I'll be the same if i haven't hope.I suddenly remember A sentence(actually a phrase):wait and hope(from le comte de monte-cristo )

Johnny Hazzard Deeper Into You Video

fight 4 freedom

I browsed some other blogs about gay and I felt much,not only confused.Sometimes I just feel hopeless and helpless of this"identify", hard to find a friend indeed , hard to do some make myself become popular.I always convince myself,"hey,I'm just What I'm,"but this is really difficult to survive.We're social animals,we need friends,we need help,support,smile,^^

After a long struggle in my mind,I just decide to pretend myself,try to be straight.China is not an open country,people here can't endure sth,just like being gay,they might use odd sight,they might hide from u,seems like u're a monster but u're not.Country,society made me,teenager,adult to pretent so it's hard to find a gay friend.

I'm really like behind bar,full of control,no freedom,we just hope our country,our city be like Canada,gay marriage,same rights,we need them very much.We are all human beings but why we have different rights and different situations?

Fight for freedom!

all new start

This is the first time I blog.It's all new environment.I wanna share my stories,my favors ad so on at this blog with u.

I'm really interested in gay porn stars these days and I have some good feelings on JOHNNY HAZZARD,a guy belongs to ChiChi company.He has so sexy bods and attractive eyes even voice.

I love him very much.I'm gay!haha!

He recently added a music video to YOUTUBE,his sexy dance looks great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYec7TJV9bI